Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Mr and Mrs

May 16th seemed like a good day to get married.

But in all seriousness, yes, we did move the date of the wedding up, and yes, it was the best decision of my life. After much prayer and discussion, we both uncovered our discomfort with August 6th as a wedding date. There are many more reasons than there is time to elaborate on why we decided to marry sooner, but it ultimately came down to trusting that we were being obedient to what the Lord was leading us into.

The way of the Lord is a mysterious path, that all those who walk it must be daring to lay down and die a million deaths. daily. God laid my wedding on the altar, asking for it. More than all my girlish fantasies of happily-ever-after and having everything picture-perfect and orderly, he wanted my heart and trust. He assured me after all that I was getting an infinitely better marriage than a wedding. And boy, is there a big difference: a wedding is one glorious day, but a marriage is daily. I have it everyday, and ultimately that is more important than any primo wedding that could be fabricated by enormous wealth (which we don't have anyway.... hah)

We've only begun to uncover the wealth of blessing and growth that God has started. It feels like this is the way life was meant to be lived, the two of us together, doing life. Completely normal. Completely amazing.

Keep us in your prayers. It is the Lord who has begun this good work, and the Lord who will keep it going. He is the head of our life, and we are devoted to His life.

Thursday, May 6, 2010

i am folly.

I think I'm resigning to the fact that I tend to work against the grain of "normal" when it comes to society. I ditched out on the whole idea of university, traveling the world for Jesus instead. Ended up finding a second home in the hills of Germany, and filled my heart with some of the greatest friends that one could ever hope to have, all without a *gasp* back-up plan, job, or degree!

I'm not normal. God likes to do these things to me, where I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing until about 2 weeks in advance. Later, it fills me with riotous laughter, but at the moment, I'm standing on a precipice.

God's been speaking these past few weeks about reinventing life. How "out-there" am I willing to be for him? How much of my life and desires am I willing to lay down, and follow his alternative lifestyle? It's counter-cultural. It's ripping apart my perspective of the world, myself, and ultimately God.

He gave me this verse today, 1 Corinthians 2:5 "that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of man but in the power of God." That's really what all this is about, trusting God's seemingly foolish commands, and not trusting the wisdom of the world. I may get looked down upon, shunned or misunderstood, but the wisdom of man is folly to God, and at the end of the day it comes down to my obedience to the convictions that the Holy Spirit speaks to me. God is spiritually understood, and by external perspectives, absolutely perplexing.

What if God has a different script for life, and we've missed it? What if we do life with Him, and do what brings life? What if this new intriguing way of living would draw in people who have been tirelessly enduring the mundane? What if this "foolish" way of living is the true life that God was intending to give us? What if this alternative is really the way of pure faith and hope that God in his love designed for life to be?

It's a whole lot more interesting.
More later, I'm sure.