I think I'm resigning to the fact that I tend to work against the grain of "normal" when it comes to society. I ditched out on the whole idea of university, traveling the world for Jesus instead. Ended up finding a second home in the hills of Germany, and filled my heart with some of the greatest friends that one could ever hope to have, all without a *gasp* back-up plan, job, or degree!
I'm not normal. God likes to do these things to me, where I don't know where I'm going or what I'm doing until about 2 weeks in advance. Later, it fills me with riotous laughter, but at the moment, I'm standing on a precipice.
God's been speaking these past few weeks about reinventing life. How "out-there" am I willing to be for him? How much of my life and desires am I willing to lay down, and follow his alternative lifestyle? It's counter-cultural. It's ripping apart my perspective of the world, myself, and ultimately God.
He gave me this verse today, 1 Corinthians 2:5 "that your faith might not rest in the wisdom of man but in the power of God." That's really what all this is about, trusting God's seemingly foolish commands, and not trusting the wisdom of the world. I may get looked down upon, shunned or misunderstood, but the wisdom of man is folly to God, and at the end of the day it comes down to my obedience to the convictions that the Holy Spirit speaks to me. God is spiritually understood, and by external perspectives, absolutely perplexing.
What if God has a different script for life, and we've missed it? What if we do life with Him, and do what brings life? What if this new intriguing way of living would draw in people who have been tirelessly enduring the mundane? What if this "foolish" way of living is the true life that God was intending to give us? What if this alternative is really the way of pure faith and hope that God in his love designed for life to be?
It's a whole lot more interesting.
More later, I'm sure.